"Lolita fashion in Newfoundland": Petticoats

The petticoat, in my opinion is the most important aspect of a lolita outfit. Without it, you can not achieve that "cupcake" or "bell shaped" silhouette that makes this fashion so unique.

It`s quite hard to find anything loliable here in St.John`s. I often shop at Thrift stores to find my things. The only thing I feel is very hard to find is a decent petticoat. I have three petticoats. Two are American Apparel, and one is from a costume store. I really like my AA pettis, because they`re made of a nice fabric and are both very soft. The only thing is, the multi-layered petti is too short for lolita skirts.
 Neither of them are really voluminous enough on their own. In lolita fashion, your petticoat should not be visible at all, also, Skirts that are more than 2-3 inches above the knee (depending on the substyle) are too short to be considered lolita. Here are some shots of a lolita-inspired outfit of mine:

So I wear my shorter one for more lolita-inspired outfits and the longer one with my knee length dresses and layer it over my shorter ones . I like the amount of volume my costume petticoat gives me. It`s made of a stiff fabric, and gives quite a bit of poof when I layer it. The thing I don`t like about it is that I have to turn it inside out after each use so it doesn`t deflate. It`s also kind of scratchy.  But for $22, I couldn`t turn it down
There is a place down town that sells longer A-line Petticoats. However, they are made by Hell Bunny. This means that they're more of a 50's "Swing-Style", which are much longer than most lolita skirts (even classic).
I haven't tried their pettis under any of my dresses yet. They are decently priced, so I may invest in one. I've been looking for a nice A-line petti for a while for a lovely skirt I bought a few years ago. I was looking at a Black Hell Bunny Petticoat last month. They seem to be great quality. I may have to wear it higher on my waist or even fold down the waist band to make it slightly shorter.

(On a side note, my boyfriend actually bought me the Hell Bunny "Courtney Coat", which is perfect because it actually accommodates even my puffiest outfits. However, I feel like the lace may give off and "ita" vibe. I may replace some of it. It's not scratchy really. And it's hardly noticeable. It's a softer raschel lace. Which I don't mind at all. I may have to get a second opinion on it. But it's still probably my favorite piece of clothing in my wardrobe)

Needless to say, I will probably get a new petticoat online for cheap. I've read reviews on the Classical Puppets and Dear Celine's pettis seem like my best bet. Once I save a bit of money, I'll buy a few brand pieces. But for now, I'll have to keep my eyes peeled for some more loliable clothing.

Personal Update

I decided against going to school today. I'm not exactly in the best mood, I thought if I went I would only be a bother. I really have to fuck off with all this procrastinating, I know.

Anyway, I'm going out with Lauren and Jeff tonight, which is always a lot of fun. I haven't seen them in a while so It'll be nice to spend some time with them. I'd really like to spend more time with my friends in general. I always really enjoy myself and they cheer me up when I feel crappy. Unfortunately I really haven't been hanging out with anyone lately. I don't really know why. I feel like it's a combination of things. I always want to spend time with my friends from MUN, but sometimes I feel like Nick really doesn't want me to, or he doesn't want to go. I can't explain it. It kind of makes me feel isolated sometimes. It can be frustrating, but I think nick is coming around. They're all such awesome people. I know he'd get a long with them.
Also, I've been kind of broke lately. like super poor. I really have to save my money.
but over all, my mood hasn't been the best. I just feel tired and sluggish all the time. I've been having pretty poor self esteem issues. Nick has been great though. He really does make me feel better about myself. I just don't want him to feel like I'm feeling this way because of him, because it isn't his fault. I've been like this for most of my adolescent life. It's not as if this is something new for me.
Maybe I'm just hormonal or something. but probably not. I don't think my uterus has anything to do with this.

I've been told many times that I'm not being a burden to anyone. But I really can't help but feel that way sometimes. I don't want to get in the way or be annoying. I don't want them to feel obligated to invite me places. I know I'm probably just making all this shit up in my head to make everything more understandable for me. I just don't see how anyone could genuinely want to be around me lately. I'm not interesting or "cool". In my opinion anyway. Ugh. Someone make me pancakes.